One Mom's Journey

Every morning during the week starts off the same.  I get up before the kiddies, hop in the shower: 7 minutes. Brush teeth, apply face creams: 5 minutes.  Throw hair in wet pony-bun: 30 seconds. Choose work clothes and get dressed: 5 minutes.  Wake up children, make breakfast, clean disaster, maybe sit down with kids: 15 minutes.  Make lunch, apply make-up: 5 minutes.  Give multiple hugs and kisses to children and husband, then run out the door, coffee in hand - feeling guilty and questioning my decision to go to work over raising
my little ones.

This is my struggle, every single Monday to Friday.  I know I am not alone.

I arrive at work - before about 80% of the staff at the office so that I can leave before the traffic hits and go see my babies.

This is my life, every Monday to Friday.

I sit in my cubicle, working hard for my pay check, just like every other person in the office.  I am thankful for a job that helps me pay my millions of bills - but not a second goes by where I don't wonder how my children are fairing under another caregivers supervision.

This is my struggle, every single Monday to Friday.  I know I am not alone, but I am thankful to have money to pay the bills that buy the groceries and cloth my children.

At the end of the day, I get in my car, hop on the toll highway, so I can get to my children faster and avoid traffic.  When I arrive at the daycare, I am greeted with so much joy, that tears are falling from their eyes...and
I have to hold back mine.  They missed me, as I missed them.  The youngest one doesn't understand that I will keep coming back.  She is just so happy that I did.

This is my life, every Monday to Friday.  It breaks my heart.  But I am thankful to be able to afford vacations with them, and buy them Christmas gifts, and clothes and food and put a roof over their heads.

This is my struggle between working mom and home mom.  Every Monday to Friday.  Every week.  Every month.  All year.  I know I am not alone.  I know we all feel this way.

This is my struggle but there has got to be another way.